For the past year, I’ve been suffering from a syndrome called ‘restlessness’. Despite my attempts to quell it, or to transform it, it has occupied most of my waking hours – and disturbed my sleep…….
I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve moved house – and yes, it has been literal a couple of times also! Not this house though, which I encountered on a recent trip away.
Much of my life has been spent living in the countryside or the bush, and I’ve relished it most of the time, so it comes as a great surprise to me, that it no longer does. In fact, what used to sustain me in my quiet life, no longer is sufficient. I want more…..
Over ten years ago I became quite ill, and life changed forever. I lived more or less as a hermit for many of those years, and that was part of my healing. Time alone will always be necessary for my well-being, but now it seems it’s time for me to rejoin society to some degree. It’s always going to be a juggling act, although I feel I’m better prepared for it now – time will tell of course.
Last November a friend and I took a brief holiday to South West Victoria, and quite unexpectedly, my friend bought a property on the outskirts of Port Fairy, where he’ll be able to pursue his artistic life with more freedom.
What a wonderful welcoming sign to the area! Need I add, that this area was settled by the Irish, and that influence remains strong today. I’ve got strong Irish heritage and so feel right at home here.
Home. Hmmm…. such a word can conjure many thoughts, feelings and impressions. Now after helping my friend pack and move to his new home, I’m on the search for my new…. my new what? Place of being perhaps….. Travel and adventure call to me, as does having a safe place to return to and rest my head. I want – no NEED to go ‘Walkabout’ from time to time and this was brought squarely to my attention when I met two fabulous young women recently who were travelling. It wasn’t envy but longing that I felt when I saw them depart after a couple of days of great times together. I wanted to be on that highway also……
Oh yes, my Olympus EM5 needs to go away for some minor attention soon, and as I cannot bear to be without a trusty companion, I have purchased another Oly, this time a TG 850, a small fun camera with lots of great features. We’re still getting to know each other, and it will never replace the EM5, but be more as a support act 🙂
I’ve given notice of intention to depart to my landlords, and they couldn’t be more helpful and supportive, given I’ve got no date of departure at this stage. Already I’ve sorted through my ‘stuff’ and sold/given away/disposed of a great deal, with larger pieces of furniture next to deal with, as I reduce, reduce, reduce…..
After all, it’s just stuff!
So there’s the picture of what’s been happening lately, and why I’ve not been posting as much. It’s all a bit fragmented…. 🙂
Find the thing that stirs your heart and make room for it. Life is about the development of self to the point of unbridled joy.
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